Freestyle. Pain Threshold.

" I could'nt help but notice your pain (my pain) it runs deep...share it wit me!" - So much pain. - Tupac.

Have ya ever woke up at bout' 4 in tha mornin', and felt a pain that you thought was gone? What I mean is, a pain that you've carried in your heart so intense, weather its been weeks, months ,or even days, this pain in ya heart won't seem to go away.

At some stage, we get to a certain point in our lives where we accept pain, as a part of tha territory. But what happens when certain types of pain become part of our makeup? of our exsistance? That's a question that has kind of phucked wit me, for a minute. We all are and will, deal wit situations that will cause us to go, to a dark place in our lives.

We all have different mechanisms we use in dealin' wit pain. Some choose humor, some choose to avoid others and bottle it up inside. Some actually take tha self destructive route. Whatever tha approach is, it seems that results are tha same...You will NEVA...NEVA... EVAR... shake that pain.

Oh yeah...you'll quiet tha voices in ya heart and head for a minute, but at some point in ya life, when ya least expect it, you will visit that dark place again. You know that sh*t's gonna happen sooo... take precautions and find a positive approach, in dealin wit that pain ( No, this aint tha "Dr. Phil" bullshit...its a suggestion. )

It's about doin' somethin to give that pain a voice, a yell, a motorvating factor. Sometimes tha pain we feel, if used in a helpful light, can propel us to do great sh*t. Some of tha best moments, as well as breakthroughs have stemmed from turnin' that negative energy into a positive drivin' force.

BOTTOM LINE: We all have to get better at harnessing that pain,into a positive force. Hell...look at me...There's not a phuckin' minute of tha day, that I don't think about ,a heart I broke , tha feelings I hurt, or a soul I did'nt help. But instead of pissin' and moanin' of how life dealt me these bad hands, I decided to make tha internets my therapy, my coping mechanism, my "voice" . (Not to mention it gives YOU a chance to go..."at least I aint that phucked up")

Please do sumthin' positve and turn that dark place into sumthin'somewhat lit. So when you do visit..you'll feel a little more secure. (Wow! did I say that sh*t?!?)


Aiight...Talk wit me @ FaceBook or Mayhemchild007@yahoo.com OR.... Follow this weird azz life on Twitter. (mayhemm09) ONE LOVE.

Maybe you've seen me in tha video..

*Sips Tahitian Treat fruit punch and takes 2 Flintstone chewables* What's good my people?!? Tha weekend has been, well.....tha weekend. I did get a chance to grab a cup o' fun and be in a video shoot. (No porno. Those days are are long gone...My porn name was Mocha Latte. Sh*t..TMI..I know.)

I got ta hang out at Rev's in Country Club Hills il., for tha video shoot of "Holy Ghost" tha new single from hitmaker Stacy Kidd. As far as video shoots go, this one went pretty smooth. Usually, ANYTHING dealin' wit' tha music industry, can turn from work in progress to clusterPHUCK in a matter of minutes. This experince was extremely pleasent. Tha atmosphere had a real positive flow to it. It was a clear example of how sh*t should go. Tha music was tha backdrop that reeeally helped all tha elements come together. People never got tired of takin' pics as well as dancin' their azzez off (I know I can't dance...if I dance, ya'll would'nt respect me later.)

There's reasons why events like this go according to tha plan. Tha music, again was on point. Tha atmosphere was electric due to tha promotion and ambience given by Latonya StClair and her team at Lastreet promotions. They did a nice azz job of enhancing tha club's surroundings. Now...for tha visual end. I got to give mad props to "Tha female Gordon Parks of this Photog sh*t" Ms. Cindy Barrymore.

She has a real keen eye when it comes to, capturing tha essence of tha atmosphere. Add to tha equation of beautiful people, you have a clever mix of organized chaos. Also...Black Star Power was minglin' wit tha appearences from Grammy award winner Hula and tha man of tha hour, Mr. Stacy (Tha big chain) Kidd ( He does wear a Big-azz chain.)

As for tha track "Holy Ghost"....MANNN LISTENNN...certifed club banger!!!! (Ya know I don't review garbage) Stacy has a talent of blendin' and creatin' mixes that boggle tha muh-phuckin' mind. (Look for his mixes and songs on Traxsource.com and other outlets)

So, it was actually a pleasent experience in tha music industry, for once. While tha hell i'm at it, I gotta show love to those, That make this movement..a movement. ONE LOVE. to Hula, Maurice Joshua, E-Smoove, Liddell "NuNu" Townsell, Tha Diz, DJ Emanuel, and CHICAGO'S Tightest female DJ Sundance. ONE LOVE. to Byron (Ten City) Stingly, Marshall Jefferson, Farley Jackmaster Funk, Terry Hunter, Matthew Yates, and sooooo phuckin' many more.

If I forgot you...remind me. Come to Friday nites @ Rev's @ 18221 Pulaski in Country Club Hills. I'll prolly have to make it my spot. Black. Star. Power. at its best.

Aiiight people...if you got an event fo' me to see, or people to know, or just wanna chat (No sex line) Hit me up @ FaceBook (Matt Lloyd) or follow my weird actin' azz on tha Twitter (Mayhemm09) Trust me, it make you thank god fo' yo life.