I believe I just had a friggin' breakthrough! ( however an odd one) Throughout my my self imposed therapy sessions of writin'these thoughts down, I actually had concerns about how I would be percieved.
Everybody at one point or another, is concerned about what people will think. Whether it's family or friends, as much as you say ya really don't care. Ya just don't to appear too needy,creepy or... what's tha technical term... oh yeah... crazy as cat shit!!! But I've learned sumthin' during my little ramblings, tha truth is that I really don't care. ( Wow! there I said it!)
Here's the reasoning behind it. It takes along time for anybody, to be comfortable in their own skin. Even at knockin' on tha door of 40 (yeah I know...right) you gotta check yourself everyday. Being comfortable with yourself, will allow you to say and do those things that, at one point will keep you in great spirits mentally. Sometimes, you just gotta say and do what's exactly on your mind. No matter how others may percieve it.
We all at one point want to be accepted, by family, by friends, hell... even by people we don't even know. But, until you satisfy yourself mentally no one is gonna accept what you put out there. My breakthrough is, to hell with a person's perceptions of me! No one has walked, or has tried to walk in my shoes. I really can say I don't care, do to the fact that, i'm puttin' these rants on the friggin' internets!!!
Yeahhh...startin' to click now huh? I don't care if this is'nt the "blogging" style that should or should not be used. I don't give a s**t about bein' "discovered" ( would be nice though, but I only have a face for radio) As for my family, this is tha first time i've ever let them in on a project like this. Once this catches on, ( if ever) It will be a matter of time before there will be some things said, positive and negative.
It does'nt matter what's said. I (That's who counts) feel better when these thoughts come off my heart. And if these rants help someone goin' through sum s**t, that's tha greatest complement! So, do what cha first mind, tells ya to do. people have to accept you, for you. It will contribute to your piece of mind.
I figure like this... I could either be on tha internets puttin' all of my business out there, to learn from and possibly help, OR... I could be on tha internets as a police blotter or a headline that starts with..."mentally unstable man" (fill in tha tragedy).
Need someone to vent to? need someone to follow to make you feel better about your life? well... ya got me on Facebook, e-mail, and this ish called Twitter. mayhemm09. Find me we'll work life out tha old fashioned way, by just doin' it.
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